Earlier, I was asked how I was coming along with my courses. My answer was as so enthusiastic as I would’ve liked it to be. I also find it incredibly uncomfortable when people as me what my “plans” are, for the future. Why is it uncomfortable? Because I don’t have an answer. I honestly have no clue of what I want to do with my life, but for some reason, I know where I want to end up. I want to live in peace, and I want to live happily with my two to four children, in a happy little town, with some hot husband to wake up to, every morning.
I have always highly disliked the idea of school. I don’t think I’ve ever been 100% motivated by it. But as I get older, I realize that when I’m actually happy doing something, I can be motivated enough, therefore putting in the most effort. When I finished high school, I wasn’t ready to go straight to university. I opted for a slower paced approached, and I think it’s beginning to takes it toll on me. I feel so uninspired, uninterested and am honestly about to go crazy. I’m so ready to be around people, because I am definitely great with them, and I’m ready to experience life.
I’d rather go to a university with diversity and the space to grow and learn, than be stuck in the house 24/7. And not just any university, but one far away from here. I want to travel, and totally submerge myself in a completely different environment. And who knows…. maybe I will figure what I like, and will go that route, but I won’t figure it out this way. I know this for sure. At times, I just want to drop out of what I’m doing now, and start over. Or, finish my current courses, and pick up from a new direction. If only if it were that easy.
Hopefully, one of these days I will be able to go away to a great university, in a really cool place with different people, get a degree in the Arts, and who knows after that. :) But at least I would have created a good foundation for myself. But now, I think it’ll be a good idea to take the time to come up with a starting plan, and when the opportunity comes, I’ll finally be able to breakaway.